It’s been three months since Covid-19 has broken out in the Netherlands and we’ve been in isolation. It’s been an interesting rollercoaster of emotions, thoughts, and feelings regarding this. I know that the first few days were terrible. I stayed in bed all day, felt trapped and useless and like I would lose my mind. After that I had a burst of energy and motivation all of a sudden and got a lot done. The things leveled out as they do. You find your equilibrium again and continue through life.
It may have felt really weird and unnatural but I think we all find our ways again when the dust settles. I’ve found I’m good at adapting, I do it all the time. The trick is to remain myself through all the adapting. Corona gave me a lot of time to think, and while being completely alone with your thoughts isn’t always good it’s lead me to some realisations. I found out I’m pretty decent at photography and can’t wait to explore this further with Portraits of Power Netherlands. I saw how much time I wasted and how much I took simple things for granted such as giving my friend a hug or grabbing a beer with them. I realised that the responsibility for my life lies entirely in my own hands and it will become what I make of it.
That last thought scared me. I know three years ago I had plans for where I should have been now but I got distracted. I had other important things to do and was out living life with my friends. There was nothing wrong with that but it’s caused me to be in the same place I was three years ago in many aspects. If I wanted change, I needed to change because no one was going to come along and do it for me.
I want to dedicate the rest of 2020 to that. I’ve been putting it off for long enough and know that I have barely touched my potential. 2020 had started off as such a shit show, at least it felt that way to me. But that doesn’t mean we should let it wreck the rest of our year. Just because the appetizer is bad doesn’t mean you throw away the main course. I want to narrow down my vision, create my path and work every single day relentlessly towards that. I invite you to join me.
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